I’m ruining my life, I’m frustrating the people I love and I’m killing myself. But I can’t stop myself.
I was vegan and I ended up starving myself.
And then I just started eating everything, throwing up multiple times an hour.
And I want to stop. It’s not fun. I blow through money, I’m lying to everyone and I can’t maintain a normal life because EVERYTHING I DO revolves around bingeing and purging. That’s all I do. All day, every day.
I don’t know how I let myself get to this. I went from having severe anorexia to having full blown bulimia. And the only way I can think to get out of this rut is to start restricting myself again but I DON’T WANT TO DO THAT. I already weigh 90 pounds on a bad day, there’s not much more of me to lose, except for my life.
But my whole life has revolved around this, aspiring to be skinny an beautiful. I don’t know how to live without worrying about it.
I know this is a long shot, but please, if you’re out there an trying to get better, please reach out to me.
I need someone who won’t judge me, who wants to get better, who I can talk honestly about what I’m going through. So that I know I’m not alone. So that I have some support. And I want to help you too. I want to listen to you and help you through it.
This is such a dark place and I don’t wish it on anyone.
So, inbox me a little about yourself, what you’re going through and let’s get through this.