nothingbecomingsomething:

weightlesslives:

Posting on Tumblr is like talking to your cat. You don’t know if they are listening, and you don’t know if they care, but for some reason, it still helps.

This might be the most accurate thing I’ve read ever

(via thatonezombiegirl)

I’m ruining my life, I’m frustrating the people I love and I’m killing myself. But I can’t stop myself.

I was vegan and I ended up starving myself.

And then I just started eating everything, throwing up multiple times an hour.

And I want to stop. It’s not fun. I blow through money, I’m lying to everyone and I can’t maintain a normal life because EVERYTHING I DO revolves around bingeing and purging. That’s all I do. All day, every day.

I don’t know how I let myself get to this. I went from having severe anorexia to having full blown bulimia. And the only way I can think to get out of this rut is to start restricting myself again but I DON’T WANT TO DO THAT. I already weigh 90 pounds on a bad day, there’s not much more of me to lose, except for my life.

But my whole life has revolved around this, aspiring to be skinny an beautiful. I don’t know how to live without worrying about it.

I know this is a long shot, but please, if you’re out there an trying to get better, please reach out to me.

I need someone who won’t judge me, who wants to get better, who I can talk honestly about what I’m going through. So that I know I’m not alone. So that I have some support. And I want to help you too. I want to listen to you and help you through it.

This is such a dark place and I don’t wish it on anyone.

So, inbox me a little about yourself, what you’re going through and let’s get through this.

(Source: it-was-the-cat-i-swear, via wontstoptillthereisnothing)